October 1, 2010 § Leave a comment
Dreams deferred often equates to joy deferred. During this IF journey, I have often struggled with finding joy in today. I am fixed on joy when I finally get a baby, instead of joy today. So in the process of finding joy today, I want us all to think of things we are grateful for now in the midst of our longing. Here is the beginning of my list…
1. I have a husband who doesn’t understand and says hurtful things sometimes, but loves me. He grieves with me even when he doesn’t understand my grief.
2. I have friends around me that support me even if they don’t understand the depth of my pain.
3. I have parents and sisters who love me through the journey and have supported all my husband and my decisions.
4. I have a God who walks this road with me. He keeps my tears in a bottle.
5. I have a God who listens as I call out to Him.
6. I have a God who asks me to trust Him with my longing. He is trustworthy.
Ok, so what are some of the things you are grateful for during this journey? Let me know. I’d love to praise God with you.
September 17, 2010 § Leave a comment
I have decided to start a regular feature on this blog called Smiles from the Trenches of Infertility. Infertility is painful, physically, emotionally and mentally. However there are many things that we experience because of infertility that can plain make you laugh at loud. I hope this feature will help you find joy during your journey…
For my first entry, I have to tell as story about my first child. My infertility is of a secondary sort, thus my husband and I, had the added complication of deciding what to tell our child. My husband and I have both been in the medical field, so we explained in terms our daughter could understand about what we went through so she could have a sister. My oldest child had seen video of her younger sister as an embryo and one day she brought home a picture for her sister. It was a black circle with several different colored lines inside the circle. She explained to me that it was a picture of her baby sister as an embryo. She told me God would take the lines and put them together to make a baby. Sweet and funny. I wish I could have seen what her other four-year old friends thought as she described the picture to them during school. I wonder if the teacher received any calls from concerned parents.
Just a funny to hopefully brighten your day!