What God does with My Tears

September 20, 2010 § 8 Comments

Infertility is the cause of many tears I have shed over the last five years. Sometimes I was so raw that I felt the tears would never stop. A flood from some deep dark place that would only ebb for a few hours and then break loose again. What is truly amazing to me is that God knows. He is there. The Bible tells us, He is the God of all comfort, but we often forget that He remembers our tears.

Psalm 56:8 (ESV) says, “You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in Your bottle. Are they not in Your book?” The word tossings means a lamentation, or wandering. Haven’t you felt that way? Not knowing what to do next, not finding relief from the grief, wandering, tossing. Oh and God has kept count of it all. He knows what is going on inside you. He alone can truly say, “I understand.” Not only that, but He keeps our tears in a bottle. God holds our tears in a bottle to remember them, to memorialize our grief, and to let us know He cares. He doesn’t let one tear drop to the ground without catching it. Isn’t that wonderfully amazing? That the God who holds the universe together, the God that made the mountains, the oceans, the Grand Canyon, cares enough about me. A person made from dust and to dust I will on day return. I am like a dandelion, here today and gone tomorrow. Yet God keeps my tears I have shed because He cares for me! Not only does He keep my tears in a bottle, where they get mixed up and it is difficult to know if that one tear was for my children I will never hold or for the time I broke my arm. No He wants to know why each tear was shed. So He records it in His book. Oh some of the tears I may wish I never wasted. Tears over toys or sin I thought I needed. However most of those tears written down to see will be an amazing testimony of God with me. I cannot wait to get to heaven and see those tear records. My bottle of tears. Honestly I suspect my bottle will be quite smaller than others. I suspect that I have lived easier times than many others. Yet God doesn’t say that I will only keep the tears of those who really deserve to cry, no He will keep all our tears. Recorded for us to remember. In heaven we will have the full picture, we will see God’s glorious plan through the tears. What an amazing way to see God glorified – through our tears!

Are you crying tears of longing, grief, and pain today? As you cry remember God is gathering up those tears, writing them down, and loving you through this difficult time. When you can, thank God for His amazing gift of remembrance that we may glorify Him in our tears.

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§ 8 Responses to What God does with My Tears

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  • iamforchange says:

    I thank you for sharing your thoughts and those shared of our Lord. I take great comfort in these words and needed to hear them at this time. Thank you and God Bless, I wish the love of our Maker fill your heart!

  • Mariahfe Bacasen Cadalig says:

    who ever you are thank you for sharing this small story of yours you made me believe and stay strong again🙂 by the way did you know that God used you to save different people from pain and suffering? that means God helped you and used you to save lives😉 PRAISE THE LORD!! and God bless you… thank you for saving me ^_^ by the way I want to share with you to hear a christian song called “Oceans” by Hillsong United

    thanks again have a nice day and god bless you again😀 and keep praying and putting your trust to God

  • Florence says:

    I pray that everyone woman who wants a child find comfort in knowing that God sees their heart…he saw mine and after I prayed for 4 years 8 months and then I conceived my child. Faith works.

    • Florence, I am so glad that God saw fit to give you a baby. It is comforting to know God is near to the brokenhearted. However it is important that we trust God’s plan regardless if He gives us babies or not. It isn’t our weak faith that works, it is God and sometimes He chooses to give us the things we desire and sometimes He doesn’t. When He doesn’t we can’t burden ourselves thinking if only I had enough faith…No we must trust God’s ways are not ours…Congrats on your precious child.

      • Pamela Sellarole says:

        Sometimes it’s just because He wants our lives to be all about HIm when He doesn’t do much to make sure His life is all about us. Sometimes He’s so “me, me, me” that I want to barf. A Father (as HE chooses to call HImself) has responsibilities to provide for and tend to HIs children, and that doesn’t mean just making them follow a bunch of rules and kowtowing to his every whim. Sometimes He is the One Who needs to say yes–just so we can genuinely believe He cares. You, dear lady. have proof in that precious child that God does care about making YOUR dreams come true. I wish I could say He gave a rip about mine.

      • Pamela, I know it is difficult to understand when God does not give us what we want or think we need. But that doesn’t mean He doesn’t love us. It means that He is 1. Able to see what fulfilling our dreams right now would do to us. He knows what is best. 2. He isn’t afraid to say no like every parent has to at some point. 3. He doesn’t want sacrifices or kowtowing as you put it, He wants us to trust Him, to be willing to say I don’t understand, but I trust that Your ways are best even when it hurts. Paul did it with his torn in his side, Jesus did it on the Garden of Gethsemane. I know it isn’t easy, but we cannot forget that we do not deserve the breath of life and yet God give it to us every day. When we recognize that God has saved us from a situation we could never get out of without Him, we begin to experience His love even when He withholds our deepest desires.

        I pray that today you will experience God’s love in such an amazing way that even though He may never give you a child you will trust Him and love Him still.

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